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…Which should probably be called Alchemical April or something like that, as it is no longer March!  Still feels like it though, still very cold outside with a chilly winter wind that has teeth in it.  Warmer weather is on its way though, and the daffodils are flowering, and in other news I finally finished (I think) my poem ‘Once’ – the first draft was posted in Mythic March Part One, but I’ve done quite a bit of work on it since then and am reasonably happy with the finished poem!  (Or as happy as I ever am with my poetry anyway, being usually convinced of its poor quality…)

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Taken last April.  Odd given that the buds haven't even opened yet this year...

Taken last April. Odd given that the buds haven’t even opened yet this year…

Once

 

Once, garbed in hope and youthful dreams,

naïve in velvet and silk, and lace at my cuffs,

I dared your forests, the rose and bramble that

barred my path, walled you in, or so I thought.

The forest pared me down to muscle, ivy

twined around tree trunk bones, and

my youthful bravado was left by the wayside, a sword

encased in stone, brambles

claiming pieces of me as I passed.

I did my fools dance to twig snap and birdsong,

moon struck, moon guided,

my once vaunted finery torn, as I slowly

became woods creature adorned with blood and sap,

time and the weary miles already travelled,

the colours that marked me a stranger in a strange land

left on tree branches and thorns,

bargained away to the witch in her cave,

or given to the stranger by the wayside,

and I’ve pitched gladly down rabbit holes,

chased ravens, and

sung with blackbirds, wild and crazy.

My velvets have metamorphosed into moss and myth, treeish;

the language of plants on my tongue, and

as I’ve observed spells in the owl’s flight

the passage of time and trees has consumed all, eternal,

moments and days flying by on the wings of birds,

leaves on the wind.

 

These lessons have I learned, reluctantly at first -

how to see the jewel in a toad’s eye, and

leap with the salmon.

How to dance with foxes and sing their song while

still hearing my own.

The taste of tears like rain in all it’s seasons,

and the feel of callouses on my hands and feet.

The mark of corvids by my eyes,

gained by long weeks of scouring these woods, always for you.

And when, at long last, I

walked out of this forest, claiming pieces of myself

from tree and thorn, and

trying to regain the name I once had, I

arrived at your sleeping palace, no longer a prince, but instead

huntsman, seer, wizard;

those arched, mythic gates opened wide, and

you greeted me – wide awake, sunrise in your eyes – and said

‘At last, here is a fit mate

for the Queen of the Perilous Wood.’

And I realised that you were never asleep at all, never lost,

never in need of rescue.

It was always I.

Recently the lovely Grace Nuth of Domythic Bliss and the Beautiful Necessity started a monthlong creative frenzy that she named ‘Mythic March’, and in which all were invited to participate.  Of course, me being me, I couldn’t resist and leaped right in, determined to create one new stencil design per day for the whole of the month.  Rather naive, I’m afraid, and a resolution that hasn’t actually happened, but I have created a few new stencils, redecorated the conservatory, started decorating two new pieces of furniture and finished one poem, while three more are in the beginning stages.  I thought I’d share a few of the things I have been up to here, for those of you lovely people who might be interested!

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Crocuses stencil design on the cutting board

Crocuses stencil design on the cutting board

Lily of the Valley stencil design

Lily of the Valley stencil design

Ivy leaf stencils

Ivy leaf stencils

I believe I mentioned repainting the conservatory... :)

I believe I mentioned repainting the conservatory… :)

And last but not least, here is the poem I wrote.  I’m not sure it’s quite finished yet, but it has reached the stage where I have to put it away for a while and come back to it later!  Writing this has really strengthened my resolve to improve my poetry writing skills – I read gorgeous work by Theodora Goss, C S E Cooney, Terri Windling, Jane Yolen, and Rilke (to name but a few) , and I look at my work and cringe.  But not enough to make me stop writing, and not enough to make me stop sharing, because being brave enough to share my work helps me to improve my writing abilities in the long run!  If I stop sharing, and keep writing only for my own eyes, I suspect I’ll just keep it as it is because its easier to keep doing what I have been doing than it is to make an effort to change and improve!

All that aside, here is my latest offering, about the prince hunting for sleeping beauty locked in her castle.  I hope you enjoy it!

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Once

Once, garbed in hope and youthful dreams,

naïve in velvet and silk, and lace at my cuffs,

I dared your forests, the rose and bramble that

barred my path, walled you in, or so I thought.

I did my fools dance to twig snap and birdsong,

moon struck, moon guided,

my once vaunted finery torn, as I slowly

became woods creature adorned with blood and sap,

time and the weary miles already travelled,

the colours that marked me a stranger in a strange land

left on tree branches and thorns,

bargained away to the witch in her cave,

or given to the stranger by the wayside,

and I have pitched gladly down rabbit holes,

chased ravens, and

sung with blackbirds, wild and crazy.

My velvets have become moss and myth, treeish,

and I’m slowly speaking the language of plants,

reading spells in the owl’s flight, and

I’m starting to understand the passage of time,

here, on my own.

 

These lessons have I learned -

how to see the jewel in a toad’s eye, and

leap with the salmon.

How to dance with foxes and sing their song while

still hearing my own.

The taste of tears like rain in all its seasons,

and callouses on my hands and feet.

The mark of corvids by my eyes,

gained by long weeks of scouring these woods for you.

And when, at long last, I

arrived at your sleeping palace, no longer a prince, but instead

huntsman, seer, wizard,

those arched, mythic gates opened wide, and

you greeted me – wide awake, sunrise in your eyes – and said

‘At last, here is a fit mate

for the Queen of the Perilous Wood.’

And I realised that you were never asleep at all, never lost,

never in need of rescue.

It was always I.

 

 

 

 

 

Creative endeavours have slowed to a much more gentle amble over the last week or so as I am currently down in London on a three week break, looking after three extremely adorable cats.  Still, sketching and writing and stencil designing proceeds as normal – a new poem has been written, a new story has been started, six small wall pennants have been completed and hemmed, and I now have plans for two more long pennants with roses on which I intend to begin when I return home in early February.

Quirky oak tree - this picture really doesn't capture all the colours and shapes on this tree, but hopefully better pictures will be taken when I have finished it!!

Quirky oak tree – this picture really doesn’t capture all the colours and shapes on this tree, but hopefully better pictures will be taken when I have finished it!!

We’ve had a real gamut of interesting weather here recently, a few days of masses of snow and minus temperatures even down here in London, and now the temperatures have lifted again, the snow has melted and spring is in the air!   I have two large tree wall hangings in progress which are coming along nicely, and which I am hoping to finish once I get home and reopen the etsy shop.

Normal herbal services will resume upon my return, have no fear!! :D

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The sea - always a beautiful thing...

The sea – always a beautiful thing…

I’ve done a couple of trips to Brighton, old stomping grounds of mine, and rediscovered a love of the sea, which fuelled my latest poem, which I have posted for those of you who might fancy a quick look!

The Sea Queen

Sea’s favoured daughter, I dreamed

that you crept up from the depths, garbed

in green kelp and dove grey pearls, sea jewels,

and gazed at me from storm tossed eyes,

beckoned and beguiled and beglamoured me,

draped over me like satin and silk, fluid, changeable,

sank into my blood, my very bones becoming coral.

And in my sleep, I followed you,

tide drawn, caught in your currents,

moth to your undersea flame – became water,

stroked by wind and rain, stirring in the depths,

racing through ebb and tide and

shifting sands, footprints and memories

washed into the salt, gone yet never lost.

You clad me in water in all your seasons, green

and grey, and clouds above, moon and lightning your blade

as it cuts through the rising currents,

silver against aquamarine and dusk and dawn,

seafoam lace and glinting jewels,

and I became you, my wild nature

never stilled for long. My sea changes

render treasure from dross, pearls from sand,

a watery alchemist driven by endless storm winds,

undertow drawing you in once more.

Oddly enough, the older I get, the more I appreciate winter as the only time in the year when I can really relearn the benefits of silence. Going for a walk at this time of year, though chilly and muddy, is a real delight in a lot of ways – the birds and animals are all quiet, the earth underfoot is dormant, and the only sound that can be heard is the wind whistling across the fields and through the hedgerows. The view is quiet and peaceful as well – tree branches against the sky, the last rosehips on the briars, fields of turned earth under sun and cloudy sky alike. Walking today, I realised – not for the first time – that my mind is always full of noise. When my mind isn’t chattering, I have music or a movie on, and that chatters at me instead. Sometimes it is very easy to lose sight of the value of silence, that still small space inside that is the beginning of all ideas and thoughts. I used to meditate regularly, and that still small space inside became rather large, boundless, in fact, and I was calmer, more serene, less prone to stress and always hurrying everywhere. My focus and ability to concentrate were greatly improved, as well, as were my intuitive capacities. I think one of the things I will reintroduce into my life this year is regular meditation – even ten minutes per day grants long term positive effects, and as the year picks up and general busy-ness and business alike mean that I move from a slow stroll to a flat out run, that silent space inside will become a blessing.

 

Elder in bud

Elder in bud

The type of meditation I find works best for me is as follows:

Sit comfortably, with your back straight. Close your eyes and ideally make sure the room is quiet – close the window if necessary, make sure you are warm enough. Take a slow breath in, hold for a moment, then let it back out again. Count your breaths in blocks of ten, with one being the in breath, two being the out breath, and so on and so forth. Focus only on counting your breaths. After a few weeks practice, you will find that you don’t need to consciously count any more, and your mind instead seems suspended in quiet, with no thoughts intruding, just peace. I like to set a fairly gentle alarm for after ten minutes – believe me, just starting out ten minutes is long enough and it can feel like eternity! If I know there is an alarm marking the end of the ten minutes, I am much more likely to persevere with it! Over the weeks, I tend to increase the amount of time I spend meditating by 5 minute increments, until I can do up to a half hour comfortably. Others may find that much longer benefits them, but for me personally, half an hour is enough. With practice, you can begin to introduce visualisation into the meditation from time to time, using the still space to create vivid pictures of goals you want to meet, or as ways to introduce a further dimension of calm to the time you spend meditating.

 

Unfurling into light

Unfurling into light

I also like to do a little Tai Chi, which is much like a moving meditation – one of my goals for this year is to get back to class regularly and learn some more of the moves, with the end target of learning one whole routine of around 160 moves. This can be a delightful way to start off the day, followed by a quiet cup of tea in the sunshine. Anyone who has met me in person is probably well aware that I have the bad habit of living life on the run, and find it very hard to slow down – meditation and Tai Chi are two of the few things that help!

 

Aconite under the Horse Chestnut tree

Aconite under the Horse Chestnut tree

Walking today, I noticed a few slightly disconcerting signs of spring starting to emerge. Aconites are flowering under the Horse Chestnut on the front lawn, almost brash against the earthen brown – not so disconcerting, as they tend to appear early anyway. The Elder sapling outside my front door has noticeable buds on it that are beginning to leaf out, and down the local footpaths, shoots of Daffodils, Snow Drops and Lords and Ladies are starting to emerge. I just hope that either this mild weather continues so that the plants can carry on as they have been, or that the temperatures dip again for another month, so that the tender shoots and flowers hold off for a little longer!

 

New Year, New Dreams

Well here we are already, at New Year’s Eve – tomorrow it will be 2013, and what a busy year it is already shaping up to be!   The seeds that were sown in 2012 will begin to grow leaves and some may even bloom, and many more plans, ideas and dreams will be set into motion.

2012 was a crazy busy year, as I struggled frantically to find some sort of professional identity, going through a phase of fairly major personal growth at the same time, and yet here, at the very tail end of the year, I finally feel as though my feet are under me for the first time, and have a fairly clear idea of who I am and where I am going.

Moonwillow - one of my stencil designs, stencilled onto two plain cotton or calico bags in different colours.

Moonwillow – one of my stencil designs, stencilled onto two plain cotton or calico bags in different colours.

Eldrum Herbs, my original company, has blossomed into The Eldrum Tree, a company that has many branches, of which Eldrum Herbs is only one!   Next year I will also be offering interior design services, as well as continuing with my explorations into stencil design, cutting and use, selling a range of bags, teas, salves, jewellery and any other goodies I can dream up.  The urge to create seems to grow stronger with each new creation, self feeding and growing exponentially, and I can honestly say I’ve never been so happy in my life!

One of my wall trees, with oak leaf stencil designed and cut by me.  I've been developing my own style over the last few months!

One of my wall trees, with oak leaf stencil designed and cut by me. I’ve been developing my own style over the last few months!

My adventures into interior design began rather tentatively, using small amounts of bold colour and keeping everything fairly simple, but that was just not enough for me!  The bolder and more confident I get, the more I want to surround myself with glowing, luminous colour, and the feedback I have had for my work so far has been encouraging enough to  make me take the decision to start offering my services in interior design, painting trees for other people’s walls as well as my own, as well as offering advice and room decorating services.

I believe I mentioned I had been experimenting with more colour! :D

I believe I mentioned I had been experimenting with more colour! :D

I have many goals for next year – not least will be my continuing adventures into the worlds of stencilling and interior design!  I have my first set of herbal apprentices joining me once a month from February onwards as well, and I am so excited about this I feel as though I am about to burst!   Over on the Emporium side of things, I want to have some big tree wall hangings ready for sale by March, as well as the usual selection of bags, mini wall pennants, teas, salves and other goodies, and maybe another potionary if I can find a suitable small cabinet for the job.   I’m going to continue my personal development, building and improving on all the ground blocks I laid over the last year.   The Enchanted Herbal is beginning to gather momentum, and I hope to have this at least heading towards the publishing stages by the end of 2013.   Also, I’m going to continue writing poetry, in the hopes of improving my writing – I want to learn some new styles, and experiment with new forms of poetry.  Lastly, I have some very exciting opportunities developing in the herbal health and beauty product development area, and I’m working with a local nursery and garden to develop a herb garden, where I will be doing numerous talks and workshops.   Any Lincolnshire readers may want to pop by and have a look – Goltho Gardens is a lovely place to visit!

All of this sounds very nebulous at the moment, but if the last year has taught me nothing else, it has taught me that you make plans, and the Gods laugh.  So for now, I am facing into 2013 with a huge smile on my face, with a heart and soul that are as light as feathers.  Peacock feathers, to be exact!   I’m not going to walk into the new year – I’m going to dance into it, instead!

The conservatory, which is more often than not one of my main work areas, began as pale shades of green and gold, and is now blooming into rich peacock shades instead.  Ahh colour... how I do love thee!

The conservatory, which is generally one of my main work areas, began as pale shades of green and gold, and is now blooming into rich peacock shades instead. Ahh colour… how I do love thee!

A happy, healthy and creative New Year to all my lovely blog followers!  May the new year bring all your hopes and dreams to you!

Tidings of Winter

Last week saw the first proper cold snap for me here in Lincolnshire, on the edge of the Wolds, and in fairly typical fashion for me, I took the chance to get out there with the camera.   The air was so cold that my  hair was beginning to freeze, and the frost crunched underfoot delightfully, though it masked more than one large and rather treacherous patch of ice!   I’m always startled and delighted by how beautifully architectural everything becomes at this time of year – tree branches, the last few leaves clinging on against the cold winter winds, and the last seed heads crusted in frost.

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Plantain seed head (Plantago major, that is!)

Plantain seed head (Plantago major, that is!)

Self Heal seedheads (prunella vulgaris) Patches of this are utterly magical when covered in frost!

Self Heal seedheads (prunella vulgaris) Patches of this are utterly magical when covered in frost!

Frozen rosehips (Rosa canina)  these'll be great for syrups now, but oh so squidgy once they thaw...

Frozen rosehips (Rosa canina) these’ll be great for syrups now, but oh so squidgy once they thaw…

 

My tidings for you: the stag bells,

winter snows, summer is gone.

Wind high and cold, low the sun,

Short his course, sea running high,

Deep red the bracken, its shape all gone,

the wild goose has raised his wonted cry.

Cold has caught the wings of birds.

Season of ice – these are my tidings.

- Irish poem translated by Caitlin Matthews.

One of the last few hawthorn leaves clinging on for dear life - and an utterly gorgeous colour it is as well!

One of the last few hawthorn leaves clinging on for dear life – and an utterly gorgeous colour it is as well!

... that sun...

… that sun…

 

 

Winterthorn and Eternity

Something in me adores the winter -

restful skies, stretching forever, and

enigmatic tree poems on the horizon.

I send my soul after the west wind,

seeking solace in the silence, heart weary and

longing for darkness’s embrace once again.

Breathe in with the nightfall and

out with the dawn, these fields

becoming strange again, clad

in silver and gilt and a different world,

different land folding itself about me,

clouds far overhead

like galleons sailing forever seas,

navigating by moon and star and

midnight’s compass,

crows cawing winter lullabies

in nearby woods,

and in the hedgerows my blood

catches on winterthorns, like

flowers of eternity.

 

Ivy against the skies

Ivy against the skies

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As was pointed out to me earlier, my protagonist in the original posting of this story was quite frankly too stupid to live (and honestly, I’m amazed I didn’t twig to that one  myself, with hindsight – I may not live in Russia, but I do live in a cottage in the countryside, and I wouldn’t be so stupid as to let the cupboard run bare right before winter, despite having a car and access to shops!)  so after a considerable amount of rewriting and pondering, here is a better version of the story!   After all, I rather suspect that magical snakes of wisdom would not pass on their lore to someone who was too stupid to lay in a decent store of food and wood right before winter – natural selection would rapidly remove the idiot from the world, I suspect…

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The Forbidden Language – The Tale of the Snake Sister

 

Once, long ago, in the far distant reaches of Russia, there was a girl who dwelt in a little wooden cottage painted bright colours, a splash of summer against the wild wood. One sunny morning in early autumn, she gathered up her basket and earth green mantle and left the cottage on one of her usual expeditions in search of autumn berries, nuts, and kindling to store for the coming winter. She ventured along the more familiar footpaths in the nearby woodlands, well known and well trodden, safe in the bright daylight and less perilous by night than some, and soon realised that she had already gathered all the fruit to be found there, and what few nuts were left had fallen prey to hungry squirrels. Undeterred, she turned about and headed for deeper reaches of the forest, and soon found a little known track that opened off to one side, framed by oak and ash and thorn, clad in the brightly painted leaves of the season and shrouded by wisps of murky mist. Curiosity can make a person do things that, with hindsight, they may think the better off, and despite her misgivings, she ventured off down the winding narrow path, ducking under low hanging branches and tree leaves bedecked with water droplets that the wind blew onto her in passing until her dark hair clung damply to her pale cheeks. Brown eyes straining in the darkness, she moved ever onward, seeking always for the familiar shapes of acorn and hazelnut, until, without warning, the ground opened before her feet and she fell into darkness.

She woke to the feeling of loam beneath her back, the heavy fragrance of it filling her nostrils. Fingers flexing, she felt fallen leaves give slightly as she slowly sat up and looked around. Darkness was all she could see, and she began to feel fear, fear that was worsened by the soft sound of something she could not identify, like high trees on a breezy summer day, and yet not like. Eyes straining in the darkness, she gazed about her, until something began to glow, softly silver in the darkness, and she began to make out sinuous shapes in the black. Snakes. Many, many snakes, moving together, in and out of a sinuous, coiled pattern that never ended. Panic reigned for a few moments, and, scrambling up, she scrabbled at the sides of the pit, seeking desperately for a way out and finding none, only the loam under her fingers and the sound of snakes echoing in her ears. The hissing began to form into a sort of song, and she found herself listening, panic forgotten for a while. Singing sibilently, the snakes soothed, and as they sang, she sank to her knees again and listened:

 

‘Mortal child, so fair and wild,

Here you stand, far beneath the land,

Above, the stars, so bright and far,

yet have no fear, for we are near,

we sing our song, all winter long.’

 

The girl found herself swaying slowly back and forth to the sound of this odd lullaby, repeated as it was by so many snakes. The silvery light given out by a round stone set in the walls high above her bathed her face, sinking into her skin and feeding her, mind, body and soul, and the snakes continued to sing, the queen of them, a marvellous creature as silver as the moon, giving her earth wisdom and root wisdom, slow, deep breathing heartbeat of the winter world as time turned beneath her and she paused, stopped in that one long moment. The snake queen taught her, during that seemingly eternal night, how to speak with plants, for long had they sought a suitable snake sister to pass the lore onto, that it might better enrich the human world. Yet one condition they set upon this learning – that she never name Mugwort, that wort so blessed by the moon, out loud, for should she do so, she would forget all she had been taught and be no more than she had been before she chose the darkened path into the forests. This they did that she would always think before speaking, and better appreciate the world about her. Days passed to weeks, and weeks to months, autumn becoming winter’s long season until at long last, the cold waned and far above the deep pit, the wind warmed as it slid about the trees in its endless trek. The snakes finally knew that it was time, and, working swiftly, they created a braided ladder from their own bodies. The girl, rising from the loam in which she had been entombed all winter, made her way slowly up this living ladder and, standing in the warmth of the sun, knew herself renewed. Gathering her earth green mantle about her, she cast about for her willow basket and realised that a new thicket of willow saplings stood where it had been so hastily discarded. Laying a hand on the silken bark, she listened a moment to the slow, wood deep, bark rich conversation of the trees as they spoke in watery tones, lessons of yielding and strength bound together in partnership. Smiling, she turned and moved down the path towards her home, never looking back, moving as if in a trance and greeting all the plants as she went.

Sadly for the world, there came a day when the girl was walking with her lover in the forest. Summer had come, and they walked hand in hand, sun caressing skin with warm golden rays. He was laughingly asking her the names of plants, and she, basking in the glory that came with knowing herself loved, was answering, bestowing brilliant smiles about her as she did so. They came at length to a tall, silvery plant that grew by the path, leaves reaching towards the sky.

“What is that one, so tall and fair?” He asked, curious, and knowing he would forget the answer moments after he heard it.

“That be Mugwort.” She replied, and the world about her went silent as the language of the plants fled her forever. The snakes sighed in their silent slumber, and settled down to wait for another snake sister, one who could learn the language of plants and would keep it, because of, and in spite of, love. And there they still wait to this day. Perhaps they have already passed the lore on – or perhaps they wait for another snake sister, snake brother – perhaps they wait for you, dear reader?

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